The reason in a nut shell, that I chose right now to start losing weight, is simple. Yes, there have been many warning signs, letting me know that I was heading my body down the path of unforgivable, unfixable destruction. But the main reason I did, was I decided to check my BMR, or Basal Metabolic Rate. At my starting weight of 323 pounds, I needed approximately 3000 calories to maintain my weight. As we all know, 3500 calories equals 1 pound of fat.
This means, that even though my body might have been burning up to a pound of fat a day, I was eating well over a pound of fat worth of calories a day. And I was doing it without realizing, without caring, and without stopping. This has been my behavior for basically the last year. How could I possibly be surprised that I've gained at least 30 pounds in the last 12 months, let alone 15 in the last 6?
Its time for it to stop. First, I fix the mindless eating thing. Maybe work some more purposeful exercise in. Once I feel like I've got the hang of that, I'll start focusing on calorie counting, and all that other stuff.
But right now, its about getting my mind right. Understanding my food choices, and starting to make better ones.